I am planning to run away with my Ex on my wedding day – Lady shares

I am in my wedding dress as I am writing this , it has been days since the thought re surfaced and I am fully convicted to take back the vows I have written .

My Ex boyfriend Joshua came back from London some few weeks back and unfortunately by that time my wedding date with pious had already been fixed , I wanted to tell my family members and my husband .
I really thought long and hard about this decision and I feel like I am making the right decision.
The day that Joshua came back to Nigeria, we immediately texted me and we had a very rough breakup because he has been abusive to me . So when he texted me I was suprised but then I proceeded to tell my how much he missed me and wants to get back together,
I didnt tell him that I was getting married because I felt exactly the same way about him as well . So I made plans to tell my family and my husband but Pious said I shouldn’t because he wanted us to go back to London together and he said that our plan would be in motion before the wedding . Today is my wedding day and I am in my wedding dress , I just finished finalising with with Pious and he has finished making arrangements now I suddenly feel a wave of guilt , I do not know if I should go ahead with this . Please I need help.