I didn’t want to Cheat on my Wife but I had to Pay Back a Loan with S*x – Man Laments

See his story:

My wife has been nothing but sweet to me but recently we were faced with a very serious financial challenge to the extent we had no money to eat, because I haven’t been paid in my place of work for months now and we have exhausted all our savings, feeding transportation and all plus we are building our own house.

Long Story short.

I’m a very cute guy, average height but real good looking, there is this lady who stays close to where i work, she is a very advanced lady around early 50s who approached me and said he likes me because I carry myself very maturely and bla bla. She is rich from the car she drives you can tell. So I told her no problem we can be friends, we exchanged contact, we do chat normally on whatsapp and call sometimes I stop to see her before going home, I introduced my wife to her and all,

Today I was having little misunderstanding with my wife today because of the money issue and I got annoyed and left this morning, during my break time at work I went over to her place and explained to her my problems she offered to give me 100k with two conditions

1. I take the money and pay back when I have it

Or

2. I take the money and never pay back but she would like to have fun with me (which I know she meant sex)

At first I thought about the whole issue, I tried to resist but thinking of paying 100k back with a lot of expenses ehn just tire me guys I swear.

I fell for the second option

Now I feel disgusted at myself. I feel guilty I feel suicidal, I don’t know how I can now even look at my wife, I don’t think I can go home today, I took a vow to be faithful and I have broken it

Guys please help me I feel depressed and ashamed of myself